Monday, September 20, 2010

Fourth Month of the rest of our lives.

Define Your Relationship.

Hey Babe. Okay so I'm going to define our relationship and express my opinion on it. This relationship we have is by far the most serious relationship I've ever been on. I don't take it as a fling thing that happens just because I'm in college. I don't take it lightly as if I know it won't last. I don't take it for granted because I know at any given point in time it can fall apart if it is not nurtured properly. Our relationship is serious business. I see it as a priority believe it or not. It's not just an ordinary relationship, nor is it simple. It is complex, filled with obstacles, problems, equations, and unresolved thoughts that hunt our minds at night causing us another sleepless night. Yes I admit it. It's hard being in our relationship. It's challenging. It makes you work hard when you're feeling lazy. It makes you care when you're feeling nonchalant. It makes you forgive when you're angry. It's makes you swallow your pride and say "I Love You." Our relationship asks so much from the both of us. It stresses us out, tires us, frustrates us. It's been a crazy four months of our lives. All those years we were just bestfriends I never once thought we could argue. I never once thought I can make you cry. But this relationship of ours opened up new doors to new possibilities. It showed that our little perfect friendship isn't so perfect. It showed that even the most amazing person in our life can make you feel like shit. But even with these new sad experiences, a great emotion was born.

Our relationship has brought us love that we've never thought we could find until we looked at each other and said, "I Love You." Our relationship has brought us plenty of experiences that we've definitely benefited from. It gave us our best memories and perfect moments. It showed how strong we are when everyone doubted us. Our relationship has sunk, floated, cruised, and even flew. It's taken the both of us in plenty of places both physically and emotionally. Our relationship has opened us up to ourselves, It showed us side of us that we never knew was there. It changed our point of view on plenty of things such as marriage, kids, and the whole definition of LOVE. Our relationship has showed us that two people can show infinite amount of love for one another. It showed us that nothing is impossible. It showed us that we'll always find a way to make things work even if it means sacrificing certain things such as time and money. Our relationship has thought us a lot of things.

However, not every relationship is perfect, and ours is far from being perfect. My only problem is that you always and i mean always threaten to end our relationship whenever we get into a big argument. I mean yes, it gets my attention but it always breaks my heart and scares me shitless. Yes, I am honestly afraid of losing you. So whenever you tell me that we should just be friends or that maybe it is better to just move on or that you're thankful to have met and and thankful for everything I have done for you, my chest starts to feel heavy. It saddens me when I hear that from you. Because out of the people I have met, your happiness meant the most to me. You've always made me feel special, like I'm not like the rest of the people in this world who walks with no direction. You made me feel so alive, like I mattered. So please, all I ask is that when we have a fight, don't pull this on me. Unless it's something you really want.

But you know what, this relationship of ours is something I wouldn't trade for anything. I trust you and you trust me. Although most of the guys you hangout with clearly wants you and wants to get in your pants I still trust you. I just hope you don't allow these guys to take advantage of your friendly personality that I love so much. Our relationship is something people wish to have, that's why they try to ruin us because they want to have this relationship that only you can provide. But the funny thing is, no matter how many times they try to destroy us, they can never sink this ship. They may cause damage but not enough to destroy our whole relationship.

So, to my definition, our relationship is one of a kind. It's made from experience and wonderful moments that no one else can match. Our relationship revolves around unconditional love. Our relationship defines us. It's made us stronger, smarter, and quite frankly it made us believe that true love really do exist. Our relationships is something people search for their entire lives and never find it. Because they can never hold on long enough to realize that they have found what they're looking for, their significant other. And I'm glad we're both still holding on. I genuinely love you with everything I have to offer. <3 :]