Hehehe just kidding. Well, I'm bored and I don't know what to do so I'm just gonna write something random here.
I remember I asked you about your journal topic and you that it was about you having to write about yourself, no specific topic, just anything you wanted to write about yourself, so this letter here I guess, will not be about yourself :P I don't know what this is going to be about but just shut up and read, okie? :]
First of all, I just wanted to say that I love you. I know it is too soon, and things are going by so fast for the both of us but I guess this is how it is when you don;t try to control your feelings. I just wanted to say I'm sorry for everything that I've done in the past few weeks. I know it hasn't been easy for the both of us, but trust me, I'm trying. I'm my hardest to make us work, to make us happy, even if it means I have to swallow my pride every single time we get into an argument. I'm not used to losing arguments specially when it comes to relationships, so I apologize for always trying to manipulate things into benefiting me. I know it is unfair for you but sometimes, you need to learn the hard way. It's not always easy for me to show you your mistakes, I know we're not perfect, but if we don't address our problems sooner, it'll just escalade into something that can ruin us big time, and I don't ever want that to happen to us. Look, I know we've had several disagreements in the past few weeks, but we always got through them. We've broken promises left and right, we've under appreciated each other's efforts, we've said hurtful things to each other, we've made selfish decisions, and worst of all, we've made each other cry even if one of them was on purpose. But even through all these problems, we always fix things before we go to sleep. I think that's our strong point. We can't end a day without us being happy with each other. We can't go to bed mad at each other, which I think, personally, is one of the few things that makes this relationship work. I think that there are a lot of misunderstandings in this relationship, which is normal because we are still getting to know each other and we are still making adjustment in order to please on another. I don't want you to think that for the rest of our relationship, we're always gonna be arguing or fighting. Because trust me, I would much rather be happy with you than argue with you. So, that's me apologizing for reacting in a irrational way towards certain things that shouldn't even be a big deal.
I just want you to know how thankful I am to have you in my life, Honestly, you bring out the best in me. I've notice several things in my life that's change for the better. I'll give you the examples later on when we're talking person. But for now, all i can tell you is that, I am no longer the guy I used to be back when I was in relationships with other girls. I guess this is me saying that I am really serious about us. I mean, honestly, we have everything that I've been looking for in a relationship. We don't have to keep it a secret from your family, which I'm still really glad so that I don't have to hide anything from your parents when I spend time with them. I get along so well with your friends. They are very welcoming when it comes to me which I guess made me like our relationship even more. The whole near-distance relationship is something new for me, which Im still trying to get used to because I'm not used to seeing the girl I like everyday. Lols. Hopefully I don't get bored of you easily >:P just keeding :] Well, like I said a thousand times to you, thank you. Thank you for everything you've done for me. I know it's not easy for you to be with me but, thank you for sticking around and still trying up to now. Thank you for introducing me to your wonderful friends who cares deeply for the both of us. Thank you for taking the time to go out of the way jus to see me, sometimes when you're not lazy :P Thank you for all the times you fed me breakfast, lunch and dinner. Even though you really suck at cooking >:P Lols. Just keeeeding :] And Thank you for making me happy. I haven't been this happy in so long until you gave me chance. For some reason, I'm happiest when I'm next to you. If I had the choice, I'd be with you all the time, and you know that. But I think we both need to have a life outside our relationship, it's the only way for us to never get bored with one another. So, please, please, please, please, understand, just because I'm busy doesn't mean I don't love you. I'm always gonna be thinking about you at the beginning of the day and at the end of the night. You're always gonna be on my mind, even if I'm busy. Life will always find a way to remind me of you, that's what's great about it. I can never get the chance to forget about you. :]
So yeah, one more thing. I know we're having trust issues at the moment and I'd like to fix that. So remind me next time we see each other to discuss that. Someone once told me that, "You lose love, but never trust." I think that this makes sense because you can't love someone you don't trust. I'm sorry if I seem rather distrustful at times, but believe me when I say that I trust you :] I see how much this relationship means to you and how you wouldn't do anything to sabotage it. And I am thankful to have someone who cares so much about me. There's so many things I want to say here, but I don't think I'll ever be finished in time for you to read this, so I'll stop here.
Thank you for giving the chance to show you and myself that I can love someone unconditionally. It's the best thing I've done so far in ay relationship I've been in. So I am very lucky to have you. Thank you for being in my life and continuing to stay. :] <3
"If you really love her, like really really love her, then making sacrifices shouldn't be hard, it should be the easiest thing in your life because if you really love her, like really really love her, then you should be able to do anything for her, because that's what love is, having the ability to make compromises for one another in order for the two to be happy as one."
Oh, and wag na wag mo akong gagaguhin dahil alam ko kung san ka nakatira at kung san ka nagaaral. tatambakan kita ng hugasin mo letse ka :] <3
- Ryanne
1/29/2012.
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