Day 1

A letter to your best-friend(s)

Well I have four best-friends which makes this a very long letter I guess.
First of all, You all know who you are so no names here.

Hey you. You're my oldest, and very first bestfriend. I never told you this but I never believed in this whole bestfriends kind of thing until you came along. I guess when I was growing up, I was never really close to anyone. Like I never shared secrets with anyone until you opened up to me. You've done so much for me in these past six years now I believe. You've helped me get through my darkest moments, sheltered me when I had no place to go, fed me when I was starving, and loved me when everyone I cared about abandoned me. We have so many fun memories that seems to be the highlights of my life. You never fail to show me that you're grateful to have me as your bestfriend. I think that's what makes us connect. It's like we developed this understanding for one another. Like we could just look at each other and know what the other person is thinking. I know it sounds cliche, but shit is actually real. I just want to say I appreciate everything you and your family has done for me. If it wasn't for you guys, I wouldn't be where I am today. True story. I'd write more but, I don't think this blog has enough room for all the memories we shared and plan on sharing. Love you bestfriend. By the way, you're my decision making bestfriend. :]

Well, this is easy. You're my best man. The only guy I actually consider not only as a bestfriend, but a brother. I know we're not blood brothers but, fuck, the shit we've been through, we're closer than blood brothers. Thanks for always looking after me. Thanks for sheltering me, feeding me, entertaining me, and being gay with me. NO HOMO! Hopefully we don't drift apart like last time. You're my option guy. You provide me with options when it comes to my problems. You lay out the options I can take and then I talk to your girlfriend to help chose the decision. Thanks for everything Bro.

Hahahaha well, hello there best. You, you're my motivation bestfriend. Yes, all four of you serves a specific purpose in my life. And you, you criticize me so much that I want to do better. You're not afraid to speak your mind which entertains me the most. I guess none of you bitches are not afraid to criticize me but you, you do it so often -__- But in all seriousness, you're one of the strongest person I know. You've endured so much in just 19 years of living. And what a wonderful child you gave this world :] My Godchild is truly a blessing. I know you're gonna be a great mother because you have such wonderful bestfriends and family to support you. Keep your head up and stay optimistic. Love you best. <3

So, you. You're the one who've seen me in my worst state when it came to relationship problems. You're the person I go to for reassurance. The person I go to for support when I make the decision, telling me that I made the right choice. You're my second voice in my head that tells me everything is gonna be alright. You're the person I call when some shit goes wrong in my life because I know you're still up trying to fix your shit. And honestly, you're the best-friend that stood by me when all hell broke loose in my life. I'm sorry for everything I've done to you. All the wrong things I did. I know it's all in the past but I want you to know that I don't regret any of it. I loved you then, and I love you now. I' am very thankful that we made up and got back to our more open friendship. Thanks for everything best-friend. :]

So, all you four people have made several major changes in my life. I honestly could say that losing one of you will leave a void in my life that cannot be filled by anyone else. You guys help me put together this new Ryanne that I am today. You guys were always there to point out the mistakes that I have made in my past and ensured that I do not repeat them in my future. You guys are my foundation and source of stability. I know I haven't been spending with you guys as much as I use to, but the best thing about you four, is that no matter how many years go by, even if we see each other once a month, we stay close as if time hasn't passed at all. To my bestfriends. May we never change for worse, but only for the best.

- With every word,